Anxiety Attacks

These past few weeks have been stressful. I had a family emergency which require me skipping the first week of school. So now, I'm a week behind in lectures, so I spent this week desperately trying to catch up. The good news is, I only have one lecture to go before I'm caught up.

On top of that, being an officer for 2 organizations (I totally regret this now) means I'm doing double the work esp. since it's membership drive week. So this week, I'm running around doing stuff for CSHP (which has to have all its events this week for some reason). Now, I have to start catching up on the work I'm supposed to do for the AMCP since I've been putting off stuff to concentrate on CSHP.

The thing is, I don't feel much for AMCP anymore. After being in the organization, I realize that I don't like managed care AT ALL. It's all business and management and I totally hate it. However, I already sign on for the board, so I still feel this obligation. Even though the workload and stress probably requires that I drop one of the boards, I can't. I know a few AMCP ppl are already talking about how I spend way more time on CSHP than AMCP. Like how I make 2 awesome slide shows for CSHP and not AMCP. Well, I would have done a recruiting slide show for AMCP too if they asked. They never did. Oh well, they're pretty much pushing out of the loop anyway.

Lately, I've been having tachycardia (for lack of better terms). I am just chillin' and listenin' to lectures but for some reason, my hear is beating freakin' fast. I can feel it beating hard against my chest. Maybe I'm having anxiety attacks?

Damn, I need Xanax.